And you smiled because you knew

2012-02-09T18:04:00.002+08:00

Random thoughts.

Some stories just aren't meant to last. It took me a while to figure it out.

You know you've accepted it when you retell your story and no longer feel sour over it. We were just kids growing up together. Our story just happened to be a short one but the sweetest.

2012-01-25T08:43:00.002+08:00

i think im being sucked into the korean wave. why friends why. so awesome tho

choco coins bakua coins!!

one month to thailand. :(

You were my everything. I was just part of your everything.

2012-01-16T13:26:00.002+08:00

I'm genuinely glad for you guys. I really am. Its just that there's a small part of me that feels a little sour. Yknow that sour feeling that just makes you wonder about all the what ifs.

Anyways, spent the last day of 2011 with the usual bunch of people. Didn't walk from Punggol anymore tho. Still wanted to get a photo of us in a 7 eleven but I forgot lol. Just feels so surreal that we're doing this for the 4th time. Just a while back we were just a bunch of 16 year old noobs making plans to break singlehood when we finally meet girls in jc.

Fast forward to today. Not much has changed yeah? Lolol. For as long as it lasts guys, cheers to us.

Recently people have been asking me what are my plans for my future. Truth is, I really hate thinking about it. Dislike that it didn't come naturally to me. Dislike that this phase of my life is gonna end soon. Still, I will have to do it sooner or later. (Resolution for 2012)

Foo Fighters 2 March. I. Can't. Go. :(

2012-01-15T23:42:00.001+08:00

2012-01-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

2011 was not exactly my favourite year but still, a super important year for me.

I enlisted in early Feb last year. I had to spend so much time away from my family and friends. It taught me how valuable time really is. I used to be all friends. In the past, I hung out with my friends during the weekends rather than staying at home with my parents. I had a lot of time to think about stuff and after being shagged out from all the walking bashing fighting with the heavy loads, I thought about my mum and dad a lot. I realised that I really really missed them.

One time during Brunei, I smuggled my phone out and called them while hiding in a toilet cubicle ( we weren't allowed to use our phones then). They took turns talking to me on the phone. Hearing Shalyn's giggles, her saying that she misses (first time ever) and my Dad being proud of me made me really really homesick. And when my mom told me stuff like she misses seeing my smile and she will cook all of my favourite food when im back just killed me there. Longest one month of my life.

At the end of the day all I pretty much wanted to was to go home and see them.

As for my friends, sorry if I didnt put in enough effort to maintain the relationship. Sorry for letting go again. Sorry for always wanting to stay at home (I'm super homely). Sorry for always being really tired. I'm also thankful for you who wouldnt take no for an answer and come harass me at my house. I'm really grateful that you bothered.

In all, 2011 made me realise how important my family was to me.

2011-12-26T01:33:00.003+08:00

Alrighty, finally caved in and got myself a bb gosh. First smartphone ever can you believe it?

Sucha paris hilton phone geez.

You try so hard not to be typical that you ended up being typical. Not meant to be cool.

2 years ago, we downed our first bottle of vodka on the roof of the amphi

Last year, we exchanged gifts (not typical $10 secret santa gifts) and watched ortis

This year, we got lazy and simply drank chocolate milk and played halo.

We're getting old guys. mellloowing out. Kinda have the feeling that this would be the last year that it'll be just us guys. ykw

Next year, I'll be friggin twenty. No longer a teen yikes.

2011-11-27T19:56:00.003+08:00

Im watching way too many chick flicks.

makes me believe thats why.

The other day we made the mistake of watching one on book in day, and we all ended uo feeling lonely and miserable lol.

I got my debit card and I can't stop buying stuff online. yikes.

white russian.

craving for shepherds' pie for the longest time. potato potato potato potato potato.

Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it. - Ferris Bueller

Sometimes when im just staring at the ceiling waiting to fall asleep, I picture myself doing the most outrageous things. Its crazy but in a way really nice and happy as well. For example, its a ridiculous choice for a career. I know i'll probably never have the guts to take that leap of faith. A small part of me knows its what I want and it'll be really cool if I manage to pull it off. and I would be really happy.

imma get a camera. my greatest investment yet.

2011-11-13T17:00:00.002+08:00

hi come back safely for christmas.

I had the happiest oct 18 in years. No usual friends, no awesome atas food, no presents, no hugs. I was somewhere in the jungle covered in sweat mud and lovin it. I smuggled my phone out and got caught but still got to read those texts.

1.)So much deep heat in my pants that night couldnt sleep.

2.)Being able to go home.

People who really cared, thanks(:

Its a gloomy rainy sunday, i just wanna hide under my blanket.

Oh, people got busted for smuggling cigarettes/iphones. I got busted for hiding 6 mars bars. gangster much.

im slowly forgetting.

2011-10-01T22:37:00.004+08:00

october is going to just fly past. cant wait to be back.

Longest time away from everyone. one more day one more hour one more minute?

still going to be homesick though. gonna miss everyone.

gotta treasure what you have guys. hug everyone that matters.

2011-09-11T17:49:00.002+08:00

Just give me 2 more months, I promise.

Its really important to me that I finish this.

In the past whenever im upset i'll read my past messages. Comforting to know that you're there for me. I wish I had my phone. :\

I wish I had more time.

and wow its almost the end of the year. Don't really feel like growing up now. and just a few years back all I wanted was to be an adult. feels like its slipping through my fingers.

your good friends accept you for who you are, your best friends understand that you're in transition.

see u then.

2011-07-10T21:06:00.002+08:00

dream come true. I really miss that feeling. when will it be my turn again?

oh got myself an ipod classic. prolly the best thing that happened to me in 2011 so far.

Where should I go to find you again?

helloo stranger. I keep letting people go ):

2011-06-19T19:35:00.003+08:00

steamboat meal for Father's Day. First time buying a meal for my Dad. I researched quite a bit on those foodie guides and in the end my Dad still prefers the usual steamboat at parkway. We so cute keep eating at the same places lol.

I'm only have radio now. Can't choose songs on radio and annoying DJs keep talking. In desperate need of an ipod :(

i just want to be home with my mom dad shalyn ah ma and yogi. Oh man.

2011-06-12T19:07:00.002+08:00

consecutive fri and sat guard duty.

tmd.

2011-06-05T16:31:00.002+08:00

Being home for dinner on a friday night is really i all that i want.

cutest white wolf-dog everzxz.

Dearest,

I wonder how things would have turned out then. I like to think that things happen for a reason, that you and I are predestined for something wonderful. I know that you dont always get what you desire in life, but i really really want this real badly. Even if it wasnt meant to be, i'm pretty sure you're still handling it well. I just need some reassurance.

Dearest,

We will never be this way again. The unique circumstances of all of us together wont ever continue and its very hard to accept. I wouldnt have become who i am without you guys. I miss you guys.

Dearest,

I'm tired of waiting. I'm waiting for something that isnt going to happen. You make it so hard to let go. I'm trying my best here and you gotta help me. So just stop right there.

2011-05-27T17:49:00.002+08:00

everything will be fine

2011-04-16T00:43:00.001+08:00

everything's just flying past.

POP lo.

breeeze dim sum shopping.

You cant lose something that you never had. Stop imagining. Stop comforting. Make something.

If theres a place that I could be
Then I'd be another memory
Dont wait for me

2011-02-20T20:34:00.002+08:00

book out ate lunch watched a movie played some video games msned sleep shopped ran ate dinner book in. damn you flying time.

Anyway, army is not that bad after all. Eat sleep exercise. The people I hang around with inside are pretty nice and cool too.

"I like that you find V day stupid but still write me notes and cards. I love the way you make me laugh. I love how you always offer me ice cream awkwardly whenever I cry. friendship > romance. " - V Day 2008.

damn you memories.

2011-02-07T00:28:00.002+08:00

Bye off to army.

I'll miss everyone especially my bed.

Oh got a new couch for the new year. Living room is my new hang out spot at home.

2011-01-25T09:00:00.001+08:00

somewhere in KL - bring me the lights.

I'm now either chilling at home or out chilling with my fellow unemployed friends. Home is still the best though. 8 hours sleep, eat junk food, work out, watch movies, walk yogi and play video games. I've always been a homely person. I'm always trying to get my fellow unemployed people to hang out in my room instead lol.

Anyway, getaway was awesome. Ate tons of prezels & cakes. Got friggin lost. I'll talk more about it when I get the photos.

1.) The Godfather 1 & 2
2.) Jerry Maguire
3.) Definitely, Maybe
4.) That 70's show
5.) Sixteen Candles
6.) Groundhog Day
7.) Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
8.) Finding Neverland
9.) Fast Times at Ridgemont High
10.) Almost Famous

Have you ever fought for something that you really want? Your dreams & desires?

Slowly, as you get older your dreams suddenly become unrealistic.

I'm still unsure about my future really.

brighter than sunshine

the evening skies on the roof will never be the same again.

2011-01-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

okay a rather impromtu getaway. ok bye yay.

2011-01-11T00:15:00.003+08:00

NYE was with the usual bunch.

2010 was magical
2011, surprise us.
its too fast

S said, "Sometimes we're just trying too hard to relive those fab times again."

"we dont realise its just isnt the same anymore"

My sis is now a kindergarten teacher. Although the pay is kinda sucky but she enjoys every moment of it. Having little kids greet you. Feeding em. Hanging out with uber cuteness. Paid to have fun. Its awesome.

I really hope I dont end up dragging myself through life. Life is too short for me to do 'chores' everyday. Whatever I end up doing in the future, I sure do heck hope I enjoy it.

alcohol is overated. LAN&pool is overplayed. clubbing is expensive. What else?

HTHT is free :D

wish you were here

2010-12-29T13:36:00.006+08:00

I would rather just sit here and just sip on chocolate the entire day.

Christmas was awesome. I got hoodie-shirt and cologne from S :O. First time receiving something else other than gummys. Ate so much turkey, ham and potato salad om nom nom nom. Watched horrible rented horror B movies which sucked so bad lol.

Oh i got another lava lamp. I have 3 lamps now. o.O

drink it like a bitch. lol.

I hate sending offs. Its just too painful

Goodbye. You're something special (:

2010-12-23T17:56:00.005+08:00

Okay I quit my job. Dont be judging! I hate the feeling of dragging yourself to work. It wasnt as fun as it was in the beginning. and I'm so underpaid/exploited. I just need to chill for a bit before feb and work started to hinder that from happening. So yeah, ditched it.

I have a fondness for simplicity. I have a soft spot for sweetness. Too bad everyones too busy trying to be accepted. Too bad everyones too busy to take a stroll. Too bad everyones too busy trying to get older. Its something that I'm not too proud of myself.

Staying true to yourself.

Ooh i played WoW.

Will I see you again in the morning?

We visited the playground the other day. Collected sticks and leaves and tried to build stuff again. After so many years still cant build anything decent lol. Picked up saga seeds. Swings still makes me dizzzy. Leaving her stuck on the other end of the see saw lol. Painful butts. Black rubberry stuff in your pants.

Even as the orange faded away in the background, we just sat there. The longest silence ever.
We just sat there.

How many chances do you get in life to find a friend? I'm still in the process of figuring that out. We could be so good together.

I love xmas! Can't wait to give out presents. Can't wait to receive presents too. Everyones around for once, this could be the best Christmas yet. Merry xmas everyone.

all the best.

2010-12-13T23:20:00.011+08:00

my internet is down. feels strangely awesome to not know whats going on in the lifes of others.

Post As mega gigawatts of immense fun. KL/Genting, BBQ, poker, solo nua-ing, movie marathon marathons (geddit lol) at V's, group nua-ing, shopping, jumping, playing with yogi + so much more. I'm missing out on a whole lot of detail here but hopefully I'll be able to recall when I read this in the future

Working now. Tired legs every day but at least I'm not draining my parents' money now teehee.

Studying > Working. Adults aren't lying.

I miss being a student already. Work is still enjoyable though plus I get paid for it.

I was on the bus home the other day, this old lady sat beside and started telling me about her life in hokkien. Unfilial children refuses to give her money. Grandson feels embarassed of her. Tough job collecting plates. Injured her legs one day and couldn't work. She couldnt afford to buy food and wanted to borrow $50 from her grandson but he refused to acknowledge her presence. She started crying. Well, I started tearing. Random crying on bus o.O

"I took care of him and raised him to what he is today, and now he wouldn't even look at me."

I felt incredibly fortunate. Here I am having the time of my life and yet there are people out there still having such a tough time and struggling with life. They dont necessarily have family or friends to carry them through the struggles. Life is really unfair. Its a fact and it sucks.

I need to wake up at 4am later. Got work at 7am. What up with the weird fixtures.

If only I spoke better hokkien.

and you know how your feelings are, I dont really have a reason for them. If it happens it happens, if it doesnt then so be it.

20 odd days more. I really would if I could. tragic really.

2010-11-22T20:52:00.005+08:00

A levels are ending soon. Bye dumbsubjectsthatihatestudyingfor. I must be out of my mind when I chose them. stolen. we smiled because we both knew

It also means farewell pretty soon. :\ would you?

Gotta stop thinking for a while. A fire i can't put out.

I just rmbed the day we thought we won 80k from big breakfast mega lol.
I ate two dishes of vinegar gingers (you dip dumplings in them) when I lost in thumbs

2010-11-01T03:43:00.002+08:00

Therapeutic rainy nights.

Here I am having a blast solving interesting maths equations and writing long essays.

Out of this world really.

Coolness.

2010-10-17T01:06:00.001+08:00

Oh no, 7 feb transform into army dog.

Uh so fast. Cut short post As activities. ):

2010-10-14T05:27:00.004+08:00

"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever"

-Winnie the Pooh

These few days made me realise that she still is my little sister after all. For the first time in years, I found the need to protect her. Sometimes I'm just so glad that we're related. On a side note, I scared the shit out of her when walking home at 3am. Inner mischievous 7 year old me is lmao-ing.

Although I always say that times at maris were better but I just can't help but feel a little reluctant now. Life's been good for me here. I get to meet the coolest people (girls lol) and even had the privilege of calling some of them my friends. I really had a great time doing things that I love with the company of people that I love.

Perhaps I'm just sensitive to farewells.

2010-10-11T01:30:00.003+08:00

For the longest time, I have been trying to find out the title of the CD playing at Haagen Daz shops.

I finally found out today when I walked past one of the shops and saw A working in there.

I watched Forrest Gump again.

I know myself and I'm not that kind of guy.

2010-10-04T00:14:00.005+08:00

buggy.

When we mistook our friendship for something else.

Steamboat @ bugis. We've got to do it more often. Unlimited beef & mushrooms. OM NOM NOM NOM

You're walking too far ahead. Look back you'll find me here waiting for you.

Okay I have to stop watching dramas. Once you start, you can't stop. I'm a friggin auntie. No, wait I'm slowing losing my metabolism. I'm a fat auntie.

Gotta stop the unhealthy lifestyle. No suppers or burgers or the van houtens. Go with tea, cucumbers and pickle and brinjal

When you indulge in envy, dude it only takes you that far.

You know it isn't going to last
You know it isn't going to last
You know it isn't going to last
You know it isn't going to last, so why bother?

There is no logic behind it, thats why.

2010-09-24T00:45:00.005+08:00

I just spent the entire day watching movies rotting in my bed playing candles lanterns eating birthday cake playing with dry ice.

I could get used to it. Can't wait to perma rot at home after As. I miss gaming.

In the end, you learn maybe we're more alike than we realize, and that's kind of cool.

2010-09-13T02:31:00.001+08:00

2010-09-01T01:56:00.003+08:00

I'm really afraid.

Ahh sheesh my alarm clock whacked out. So much for $18.

When they were on stage, I saw how much fun we had then. I remembered how proud I was then.

We danced our hearts out
We were in that control room
We rushed to make videos
We all ran to backstage
We had make up on
We thanked everyone during our debrief
We had the best concert ever
We had the passion

Today, I saw all of that again except this time it wasnt us anymore. I felt a little bit envious. It was our TD. Sitting on the ground with all of you guys again with kevin standing before us, it a familiar feeling I realised I missed so much. I didnt know it would be that fast. Dont you forget about me.

I'm so proud to be able to be part of this organisation. For you guys, I'm sure it was the best concert ever.
I really want to turn back time and go hug all of you guys

2010-08-23T01:22:00.002+08:00

My friggin phone died on me. I got it repaired and everything was erased.

I'm terribly terribly terribly upset right now because 1.) I lost 2 years worth of memories. 2.) 2-2 3.) I have no more music

oh my gawd.

I CANT READ MY PAST MESSAGES ANYMORE. ):

I hate my new main menu layout.

2010-08-21T14:55:00.002+08:00

the ice cream that you gave me. i'm almost finished with it ):

My sister was so upset with her results the other day. mega cried. I just stood there using the same comfort lines. comforting fail.

kiss on my list.

2010-08-15T23:19:00.003+08:00

Ooh fireworks bonus. breathtaking.

I would love to night cycle around kovan. I need a bike though. Stayovers + movies was sweet. If I had to repeat an activity for eternity. It would be to

Okay no to mio tv. Going to watch matches at kovan macs.

You know the whole idea of 'running away and not looking back'.

You know the feeling you get when you wake up each morning during your vacation overseas.

The best years of our lives.

You know how adults always say, how schooling was the best period of their lives.

(too corny)

If these past 4 years were the best years of my life, I really wouldnt mind at all.

2010-08-12T00:08:00.002+08:00

weirded weekends. No drinky if you go insaney.

Oh the fireworks were fantastic. This year, I caught the amazing from right outside the house. With my neighbours and friends. Its a different kind of feeling. Everyone gathering outside the corridor, peering towards that corner of the night sky. It was warm. Oh my mom totally missed it. The last time tgt.

bestfriends. husband and wife. mom and dad.

I love to see my mom explaining jokes to my dad. Totally ruined the whole funny but quite amusing to see how my mom explains.

My mom learnt how to make donuts. The first donut tasted awful.

Donated bloooood.

I need some sugar. Not just to replenish 450ml of blood.

Oh man I waited too long for victory over chelsea. I missed it.

Can I be selfish for once? Can I ask you to not leave? Sometimes, you just want things to go your way. Life doesnt work that way. The daily struggles of life excites. Someday, we're just going to grow old and die. Be happy. Somehow, somewhere it will come.

2010-08-07T09:40:00.004+08:00

Cant wait to see the fireworks this weekend.

I hate how you cant control your thoughts. Its just swirling and swirling inside.

I accidentally sniffed that shaker fries powder and sneezed into the paper bag. Little kid laughed. ):

You have like 453 friends on facebook but somehow you always hang out with the same 5 people every weekend. I have all of them on speed dial and voice dial.

There comes a point in life where u start to get sick and tired of always wanting more. Why is our bodies wired like this? Ribena makes me happy 8 years ago, and its now such a turnoff. I never liked milk, please dont let future me fall in love with milk.

Its just a never ending pursuit of happiness. I dont want my life to revolve around it.

Oh I think I'm adult-ifying. I don't like sweet and sour pork anymore :O *gasp*. I started to like drinking herbal soups. I take afternoon naps and cartoon network bores me. I eat breakfast during breakfast times regularly. Pretty soon, I'll be sipping teas on sunday mornings and yelling at kids who bike around the corridor. Please let me still like chocolates donuts and video games.

Okay I do feel upset right now. It just hit me at that moment that hey you're going to be at a very very far away place.

2010-07-28T00:40:00.002+08:00

kovan macs everyday.

life is a such a drama.

If I had a eccentric scientist bff who built a time machine out of a delorean
If I could afford to escape to Hawaii to fall in love.
If I were a journalist for Rolling Stone touring with bands
If I worked as games at adventureland
If I won the golden ticket

the movie of our lives. Lets watch it together. I'll bring the nachos, you can bring the ice cream.

In the past, I always had trouble falling asleep because I was too excited about the next day. Talking to my sister about random stuff that we'll do before oversleeping the next day. Once you lose tommorrow's excitement, you'll stall.

I need to get mine back.

I just wonder how on earth, S and I are siblings. Shes so annoying. Always pwning me whenever we argue. I'm just so glad we're related. I love my sister.

"Eh you PF FF* Why are u so ugly while i'm so pretty"
"Do you realise that you look super ugly in photos"
"Stop trying to act cool lah"
"Why your pants so tight *annoying but endearing laughter*"
"Your shirt doesnt match your shoes"
"Are you gay?"

*pimple face; freckle face

2010-07-27T00:40:00.004+08:00

Happy tang yuan festival. My soup gone cold. I know because I've tasted my piping hot tang yuan before.

Put miserable into a bowl of water, and you get a bowl of cold bland tang yuans with no fillings.

Had my bowl of tang yuan. Hope it would feel better the next time. Hope it wouldn't have to comfort the next time.

My windows are clouded
and I've lost my way
I long to just take a pause.
and stay wrapped in my defined warmth

Somewhere along the line, I lost it. I just need some time to find my way again. and all I know is, life is too short for me to swim in my own self pity.

I'll blog then. :\

You know when you wake up, feeling mighty relieved that your dream is over only to realise you're in fact still trapped in the vicious cycle.

This feels awfully surreal. Can I wake up now?

R is migrating to UK after As with her family.

2010-07-16T02:29:00.003+08:00

My future is on the verge of a substandard possibility.

I'm going to work my ass off for this one. Not without feeling strained. Not without being stretched. I'm not letting this one go down without testing my limits. Hell, I want it.

Whenever any of my friends get into a relationship, the question of whether our friendship would be able to withstand the blow if relationship ever affects our friendship. I know for a fact, some would crumble.

Look at what u did to me.

You blew us off at the last minute when u had to go out on a date
You forgot about our bro traditions
Somehow, we're always talking about your bgr problems and nothing else.
You pms when guess who pms-es
You somehow drag me in

You know my views on relationships. I know its unfair for me to impose my brosoverhoes mindset unto all of you right now. I'm at a different stage of life where what I want and what I need is probably slightly different from yours. And when I eventually break hold, I know I'll probably disapprove of my future self.

I guess all I really want to say is, despite all of this we're still tight. Because I ignore your advices and do stupid things to myself on so so so many times (I cannot emphasise this enough) and I guess its part of our youthful nature. I too, have stabbed you countless and have taken you a looney ride on so many occasions. Why are we bros? Perhaps its because that we are able to shit on each other 1000 times and yet still be able to laugh about it over tau huay donuts or frog legs the next moment.

Thank you for regarding me as family.

2010-07-12T20:41:00.004+08:00

My parents are thinking of moving. *protestprotest* *grumbles*

My mum always dreaming of new and clean house.

Life has been awesome for us in kovan, why would we ever want to leave?

1.)I can get 40cts bomb bags anytime and $1.20 sparklers, best provision shop just a few walks away from my lift
2.)We have the best macdonalds ever - best fries (perfect salt ratio) and awesum study/hangout place.
3.)I can go bowling + cheap arcade + pool anytime. walking distance
4.)I have the nicest park ever - best place to lie down and look at the sky. My favourite mooncake festival place
5.)Heartland mall - best blueberry waffles @ $1.20 I bought almost half my cd collection there cupwalker, need anything just head there
6.)Found love&friendship in kovan
7.)Video rental store that fueled so many moviemarathons+stayovers
8.)My rooftop
9.) Tons of memories in kovan. All the stupid things that we've done when we were kids. All the random outings to random parts of kovan. All the laughter. All the awkwardness. All the tears. All the mooncake festivals. All the Christmas. All the birthdays. So so much more.
10.)

I'M NEVER LEAVING KOVAN. yeahhhhhhhh

2010-07-11T00:43:00.003+08:00

Always around, you wouldnt know how precious it is. How do we know that we're indeed happy? If it fades, it probably didnt even exist in the first place. How can we feel upset?

Smiles are incredibly sweet. I think its super easy to make my day.

Does everything have to be rational? Pause, follow your strings and we'll get there. Please dont try to define us. For once, go with your heart. We'll get there, wherever it takes us.

dazed and confused. breakfast club. sixteen candles.

Been playing a lot of monopoly deal lately. Family and bros, all playing em. sho fun.

2010-07-03T15:47:00.002+08:00

Bintan. Empty beach. Best day of the month for me.

Waking up every morning on the couch, knowing that nothing is on your to-do list. Today, you can do anything that comes to mind. No baggage

super(:

I got a handphone tan on my chest. I fell asleep with the mobile on my chest. facepalm much. I have no idea on how to erase it. HAHA

i look like iron man now :O

Back at mshs ytd. Singing (or shouting haha) the everbanned peng you & tong hua with the guys again felt nice. It just hit me at that moment - I missed it so much. Best years of our lives.

that feeling of excitement. You know that feeling you get right at the start? Sucks that its fizzled out now.

so so much. Its going to be alright.

omg. I have a superbad sore throat. My tonsils are like balloons right now. eew.

2010-06-22T09:47:00.001+08:00

don't stop believing

hold on to that feeling

2010-06-17T08:15:00.002+08:00

"Its like chasing a car, you know you'll never reach it but even when you do, you wouldn't know what to do with it."

teenage movies. I like watching em. Experiencing whole new lifestyle that I'll probably never gonna get for 2hours. (Y). That concept of freshness/excitement. Is how I derive mine.

recently. of course.

Urgh. I'm going to miss Hell Belles' gig. Probably the closest live gig of ACDC that I'll ever get to hear.

yeahyeahyeahs. stars. feist. snowpatrol. newyorkdolls. hendrix. joanjett. cranberries. eels. mcfly.

Whee. off to bintan. I'm still going to bring my books along. How tragic is that?

2010-06-16T04:29:00.002+08:00

nothing beats good movies + nachos with khong & teo.

more chillouts @ my place after exams.

subway hang out soon. lol

chasing cars - my favourite love song

2010-06-13T02:32:00.007+08:00

I was walking home when this couple came up to me and asked whether I'm Joel Tan.

Joel lost his orientation boxfile like 5 months ago and apparently he left it behind while buying a drink near my place.

HAHAHA this lady recognised me and waited 5 months to return me the file. How nice of her.

My sister cried over longan & prawn with rice because she thought my mum was abusing her. My mum just wanted to let her try something new. Amusing. But seriously weirdest dish ever. (N)

when all else greys, I hope I'll remain true to myself. 10 years down the road, hopefully you'll still like me. Hopefully, I wouldnt cave in.

Theres something different about you today. ? my feelings tell me otherwise. 2nd time in my life. :O I'll figure it out.

When I was 17, I had a lush dream.
That one day, that I'll find someone to be my balcony swing partner to enjoy lazy sundays
That one day, I'll find someone who can share my love for tauhuays donuts & penguins.
No matter what, we'll feel happy for each other.
When I woke up, I realised constants like them already exist in my life.
Why am i always yearning for more?
Please savour our smiles.

Oh theres BT2 too. boooo

2010-06-08T11:10:00.002+08:00

If you feel your dream is dying, hold tight. Its going to pull through.

You got the music in you.

Urgh, lifes mundane. I'm living off tidbits&icecream for meals.

I'm starting from scratch with maths. *facepalm*

linger on, i can't feel your touch. :(

2010-06-03T04:26:00.002+08:00

Who am i lying to?

If I look at myself in another person's point of view, would I like myself? I doubt so. Arrogance. Irresponsible. Bitter. Whats there to like? I'm becoming a person that I'll love to hate.

I'm working on it. Give me time.

Anw, money is really tight. I have planned my budget. I have 6 luxury meals left for the month ( $10 meals ).

Bintan trip coming. Ah, soaking in nature.

2010-05-31T01:38:00.002+08:00

I'm so happy(:

I went grocery shopping with family today at cold storage. Felt awesome. Just like old times. My sister and I would go around the store picking anything that we fancied, except this time we're no longer playing in $1 trolleys.

ooh chalking up $300 + on foood. Hopefully it'll last me for a long time.

btw I bought cheese dip. A lot of cheese dip. Nachos party anyone?

2010-05-30T01:13:00.004+08:00

Havent felt family for a long time.

I have this huge fear over babies. They're cute and adorable but fragile. I havent carried one since like forever. That intrigued look - creepy. poop and peepee gross. Nice to hug though. heehee

If life is just about chasing coloured shiny balls around shopping malls.

I never realize how much I like being home unless I've been somewhere really different for a while

Its true. Nothing beats my own toilet. I can just stay in there for 3 hours. I once felt asleep in there.

I swear man. Sleeping in on a saturday morning (Y)

snap crackle kaboom

2010-05-29T01:59:00.003+08:00

"don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you."

I feel so mean right now. Just got ditched for later on and I thought to myself - hey who else can I hang out with?

family & friends.

Today was fun c:

Bah, I was too lazy to walk out in the rain to get dinner for myself. In the end, I had 3 cornettos and half eaten cheese fries for dinner. :\ (i'm hungry)

chessy, I can't get over you. Aye, when you can't fall asleep - post seemingly random stuff on facebook + rant blogging.

Friday night movies @ home. love it.

2010-05-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

blemishes

school seems breezier now.

can take a long stroll home after school now.

For dinner with family.

Somehow, I haven't been switching on the air-con in home for a while now. Sleeping with the window open, pondering.

home seems breezier now.

Oh, lava lamp spoilt ): Yeah maybe you're right.

How do you break up with your friend? bestest.

2010-05-22T01:24:00.003+08:00

I'm proud to be AHOF of the 32nd. Thank you Chetwin.

I struggled with writing to people that really mattered to me in council. The same people I cried for during stepping down. The hardest thing in life. goodbye.

I'm grateful for the opportunity to be able to learn so much.

Though it wasn't flawless, but still, I cant imagine going through all these without all of you guys.

Council!!! Havent I ever mention it here? love it so so much

I'm thankful for the friends that I've made throughout this past year. Even when all else fades, at least we still have the photos to remind us of our friendship, our passion.

Moments of happiness here and there, and just accept that the rows, the games, the hurt is all part of it too.

Maybe it is time to move on, maybe we will find happiness else where. What lies ahead for all of us? I'm excited.

until we meet again.

please hold it tightly, till my very last breath. In Retrospect, (:

2010-05-17T00:14:00.002+08:00

Is this one of those things that you would only cherish after it is gone?

Fate

"I've done my part, why didn't you do yours?" - I'm sorry.

Tired of change. Tired of realising the real you.

I can't go on. Are these tears or raindrops?

2010-05-06T01:20:00.002+08:00

super jaded

Your parents took great pains to groom you as a child. Now at 18 while you're having the time of your life with your friends, they are still silently supporting you.

Chicago tmr(:

Sleep deprived.

2010-05-03T00:45:00.003+08:00

cute.

one in a million. sharing one ipod, friendship at its best. simplicity shines on.

"Why do we get married?"

"Its just something we gotta go when we grow up"

Teared while watching My Girl on HBO ytd night.

Ate a quarter pounder today. double cheeseburger clone much

2010-05-01T00:52:00.004+08:00

cosy friday nights with free cable again

I'm just chilling with MTV world stage. pretty awesome. Already watched 2 movies on HBO before that.

Ooh, I ordered fries ytd night while watching some chinese dramas. I fell asleep before it came. My parents just placed the fries beside the asleep me afterwards. When I woke up in the morning, they were gone. and the funny thing is that I had this rough dream of drifting in and out of consciousness and eating my fries during the process. funny much

I got memories attached to songs.

FREE CABLE IS SO AWESOME. I GOT 144++ CHANNELS NOW. THANK YOU STARHUB

bought da iron man 2 soundtrack. its great. pure acdc.

How can u explain your gut feeling? Is it reliable? For me, at least.

To me, once you're in, you're never out. Can u really define friendship?

I just sat there with a purple pen & paper, penning down whatever that comes to mind. Somehow, I always end up doing that when I'm upset. Today, I sat outside the hall popping dark chocolate M&Ms while doing that.

I impose my expectations on others. Things dont always go your way. 80% of the time why I am unhappy.

OKAY I'M GOING TO HAVE STAYHOMESUPERAWESOME LONG WEEKEND.

impossible

2010-04-26T00:18:00.003+08:00

Ah weekends were awesome. Had fun along with fair bit of studying.

"I have never gotten wasted on the MRT." teehee

What do you want to achieve at the end of this year? Future? Take aim, you have one shot.

I miss my mom and dad. Family should have meant the world to me. Funny how I always always remind myself to treasure ever single moment of my life. kinship

You live it once.

Tragic and ecstatic. This weekend, I had the opportunity to celebrate and comfort. bittersweet, i'll be there. We'll be there.

I hope you'll be there for me too.
This weekend, relationships are so so fragile. I'm thankful for what I have now. I never want to lose it.

2010-04-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

Remember how when you were young 17/18 year olds etc seemed so cool and grown-up and mature and like totally living life etc?

I wonder if I live up to my childhood perception of myself now.

omg he is so kewlz totally.

2010-04-18T03:48:00.007+08:00

i hate bees.

Three rings appeared. :(

10things that make me smile (:

1.) The sky ( sun moon cloud stars )

2.) When people openly show their affection for me

3.) When it rains at 7pm on a Friday (in my opinion the best weather condition)

4.) daydreaming about my what ifs in life

5.) eating really really sweet stuff

6.) spacious classy toilets with clean tiles accompanied by compulsory bathtubs

7.) long strolls

8.) pouring water over dry ice

9.) omgijustrealisedwe'regoingtobefriendsforever moments

10.) romance stories

even when the world falls apart.

I really like listing out stuff that makes me happy(: this way I know when to be happy, when to look forward to being happy, what to do when i'm feeling sad.

Oh I like this photo better now

teehee this too. can be no. 11

2010-04-11T00:42:00.002+08:00

Love this photo. teeheehee(:

Oh my mom picked up new cooking skills man. She baked like this super nice brownie cake which tasted superbly high class. She made mango sorbet-like thingy ytd and I have frozen tummy now. wooo she should totally quit her job and be a happy housewife to her happy son.

frogs + tauhuay ytd with teo & les. Starting new traditions quite hip now eh? Maaaahbolo?

Promises we made as kids. To be honest, I dont really look forward growing out of it.

Nice weather for beach chillout but we were busy wrestling mwahahhaha. Guy sports rawr!

Sometimes we are just too weak to resist change.

If your will is strong, bad habits and lousy results wouldnt exist.

The best things in life. mother nature. your stars. moonlight mellow glow. laughter. marshmallows. friends you know that will last u a lifetime.

The worst things in life. Fading sunlight beyond the horizon. Ginseng butter & milk. Silent farewell + goodbyes.

2010-04-07T02:11:00.002+08:00

harsh browns

when I left, 4F became a blur. When we swore to stay bros for as long as we could. When we promised that we'll stay in contact with each other. When I havent seen 3/4 of the class for ages. When we became hi-bye. Haha, its quite funny how we anticipated the problem and promised each other that we wouldnt stray.

When I left, NP seems so far away. The ohsoshiok feel of smiles & laughter through the flames of the campfire that I yearn so much to feel once again.

When I was done with Os, there was no more need for us to hang out anymore. We all secretly knew that that day was probably the last time we're gonna see each other. That little silent goodbye that we shared.

Its just isnt the same anymore. No matter how hard we try. We don't see each other everyday anymore. We have our own busy schedules. Girls (haha!)

I've come to terms with it. People enter and leave from your life. Its all part of life. Dont be sad. See it from another point of view, at least our path crossed at one point of our lives and we parted with sweet memories.

For all that I've said, I just feel really lucky and thankful for all the constants & to-be constants (teehee) in my life so far. Thanks for sticking around for so long. Its really hard to find a constant and I really really treasure all of you a lot a lot. Cheers, buddies.

When I'm done with As, S24, Council and SAJC...

2010-04-04T02:06:00.003+08:00

Don't be a dumbass seriously.

"The Heartbreak Kid, Shawn Micheals has left the building" :(

BBQ earlier today. Ate nothing at a bbq for the first time ever. Talked to rach & cheryl for a bit. Realised that we've got a whole lot in common before I left. (We shall converse more in the future, gals are such fb stalkers srsly)

Heartbreak over @ my place with MU getting cheated out of a win. Drifted around in Kovan for losers tau hway (most unhappy th ever) before meeting teo around his place for like $30 froggy porridge.

oooh subway tmr. GFs are banned from any forms of bros gathering. I say one.

I know it means a lot to you, be happy yeah? buddy.

2010-04-01T23:59:00.004+08:00

We have this bro tradition where we each have a subway footlong sandwich at vivo on the Sunday before the term break ends and school reopens. We were supposed to have one before the March break ended but we ended up postponing it. Its still pending btw. Kinda sad how our traditions turn out. :(

ISHOULDREALLYSTUDY. LIKE REALLY STUDY. MY DEAR DEAR AWESOME FUTURE ADULT LIFE DEPENDS ON ME NOW. WIFE 3 KIDS SNACK ROOM DESERT BAR POOL STARGAZING ROOF ORGASMIC SUNSET BACKGROUND

I'm just really glad that we had the opportunity to be friends and to work together. When it hurts to look back and when I was afraid to step forward, I can always be sure that when I look beside me, you're always there. Thank you so much.

I treasure my friendships. I really do. I always believed that friendships/brohoods last forever. Somewhere along the line, I lost it and I really want to find it again but even if I dont, its really okay because i'm grateful for the gift of the wonderful memories.

yours & mine.

GOOODY FRIDAY. I LOOK FORWARD TO D FAB WEEKENDS. D: I have to wake up early for some family thing tmr.

HAHAHA I totally broke my movie drought and drifted into watchingtoomuchmoviesgosh. Impromptu COTT with chet today lol and we were just walking out to eat lunch at pp.

bought like $1 CDs outside cathay with s last weekend lol. Foo fighters greatest hits woo hoo!

this is what I did during my maths BT (totally not bragging here it is just for future amusement purposes when I get my A eventually) + practice writing with left hand.

Watch south park. super funny. S24 ROCKS

2010-03-20T18:53:00.001+08:00

avoid studying at home. bleh

sho screwed

2010-03-19T02:16:00.002+08:00

wahh I lost my phone. I feel so helpless without phone-y. No more restless flipping clamshell :(

My stand-in ipod tooo. Oh where are you? I need my music! I'll buy u a nice cover or even a pouch to stop the scratches! Just come back man.

Grandma just came back from NZ and brought a whole load of cadbury chocolates. Fish marshmallows, kiwi bars, bubble filled chocolates, strawberry yogurt chocolate bars and many many more. Gosh feels like candy empire. heehee

LTC&SC over. I feel a stronger urge to be around for them. Dont worry, I'll try to be the best senior I can be.

Oh I'm friggin broke again. No more random last min Paramore concerts (it was awesome btw), crazy $15 ramen, daily bubble tea + blueberry waffles (I developed a taste for milktea btw), 24 donuts rampage and shopping in general.

I'm dreading my last proj

INEEDTOGOSTUDYNOW. BTS urgh

2010-03-07T04:58:00.002+08:00

Saturday just felt so normal again

Sentosa in the morning & chillout at night. thanks fwens.

I want to do well too(:

What to do tomorrow? I need a new study buddy for sundays!

bleh you bore me.

2010-03-04T03:34:00.003+08:00

gosh I just woke up. My sleeping pattern starting to get v erratic again.

dudes of the world unite, Stereophonics is coming to town.

and I'm just just gonna go in the way of saving. Dinner @ home for the rest of my life. BTW I had microwave-ed pizza for dinner today hahaha v cute.

i think i'm free this friday night. I think. Should I make plans? hee hee excited.

K00lzness I bought like emerald & violet pens for $1.95 each. Way to go, i'm on my way to being super cool.

but but my pencil box is still spells gay. I should invest in one soon.

HEY HEY LEMON. HAHAHA JIMMY IDK WHY BUT THIS SHITZ BEEN STUCK IN MY HEAD

"JUST GET OUTTA HERE YOU ANIMAL"*patrick walks away* super funny i laughed to myself. daily 1 hr dose of nick :D

-insert emo line here in italics-

2010-03-03T01:41:00.003+08:00

''Something you held on to your entire life''

sho weird that now that its gone.

ahh its for the better anw, it was irritating for both of us. yikes

seems like (500) days of summer. amicable parting

EH, I cant go for japanese cuisine outing tmr. crap

2010-03-01T01:29:00.004+08:00

we were useless and we only have ourselves to blame. The hypocritical feeling stacks every time I talk about it.

but it stings so so much. tears over msn, memorable.

I want to go around and take photos
I want to spend 5hrs in HMV
I want to stuff myself with sugary chocolatey stuff
I want wagyu sashimi and beef
I want to stroll the neighbourhood with yogi
I want to soak in sunset again
I want to hang out with my fwens whom I miss so so much

sweeeeet.

meanwhile back on earth, I shall just stay contented with what I currently have.

and omgah, I haven't been in the movie theatres for 3 months already! 1 year ago, I was making fun of people like that. hahaha no life-r

btw today was real bad, roaming around in school likea zombie. tabletop + me = sleeep

whine whine *clapclap* whine whine

I havent had a proper friday night or saturday in a long long time.

y'all know that ohsohurting feeling when you know its never going to the same ever again. Realisation never been that wrenching.

Night after SC when I took that friggin bus to find you. When I finally realised everything that I hoped for was never going to come back anymore. At least we have our supasweet memories left hahaha. ohwellsz

omg hahaha now what?

bye, I'll miss you.

okayokay I need to save $$$, I cant keep going broke before the end of the month.

2010 been pretty spendid so far, i'll like to keep it this way. thankyouverymuch.

"naooo, its just me and ma bros against da worldz"

wise words I must say, hahahahahaha

2010-02-16T14:36:00.003+08:00

CNY 2010

Long strolls home. Ooh dark scary alley, its up to me to protect you! haha

This is the way I walk home everyday during maris days. (ps cute dog in the background haha)

The sun was so beautiful. My horns just came up, irresistible. Daylight speaks to me.

Remember the times where we just chilled on the field every evenings, this was what we saw.

Come to think of it, cracks are forming. At least the memories are still untainted. :\

Rooftop on my block. After block catching, we'll just stay here and watch the sunset.

good stuff from Japan. It defined CNY 2010. hahaha

Its funny how you like round stuff.

V day, I really treasure all my friendships. Thanks for the constant joy that you brought me. (:

We watched Mean Girls and Bandslam. Both unexpectedly fab

12 storeys. :O creepy. I live on the 12th floor btw. lol.

The only time of the year where my fridge is mega full. Non stop esprits. Pineapple tarts kept coming on. I drowned in chocolate. I love the fact that my Mom bought a whole load of gummies this year. Fantastic.

Oh i earned like 30cents from MJ.

Oh oh I had free MTV too. :D

side note, CNY is really becoming too mundane and routine-y. At least the goodies are keeping me interested.

The reason I joined council. The vision that I had. It sorta materialised during the picnic. *glad*

The final lap of our childhood. Living in it to just cherishing the memories left. I know I'll miss it so so much. Will we be as close? Come and go?

I'll bring glue to stop the cracks from forming.

2010-02-07T00:03:00.005+08:00

Its bittersweet.

I just felt so incredibly sad today. When I saw them hugging everyone, I just lost control of my tears. I'm just so bad at farewells.

heartwrenching. all the best, really.

I just cant bear to see you go.

I just cant bear to see us go.

On the other hand, I just find it going in the disgusting route. I dread it.

bittersweet memories.

I'm thinking photography. sunsets and fields. beautiful:)

Anyway, just came from crazy ice cream bleh. We just sat at Garden's with 4 litres of ice cream to kill off. It was insane. lol @ mark of a loser.

Urgh, my stomach is so frozen nao. So is our friendship, R , I wish you would read this.

2010-01-27T01:18:00.003+08:00

wow, we're almost halfway done.

the other day while all of us were singing the college hymn, I got pretty emotional while taking pictures of us. Its the first time that I felt that sad hard-to-let-go feeling for council. I know that i'll slowly get more of that until the real thing eventually comes.

I still remember standing on that black chair, gazing upon the laughter, joys and the giggles while we were all holding on each other and singing.

cause I know i'll miss it so so much once its over.

Orientation 2010. our finest project. us, their finest project.

2010-01-20T23:58:00.001+08:00

I love my life right now.

Not sarcasm

so hectic and rush. fun much much.

Be back when I accomplished what I've set to do.

A LOT to say.

2010-01-15T21:23:00.003+08:00

im in pain. headache. urgh

We go our way,
I wished you would stay.

I walked for miles till I found you
Did it go through?

Gift in my eyes
Was it not more than mere lies?

Times where it was carefree
Bittersweet shall we?

guilt. I swore not to do it again.

Wheres the discipline and strong will that you claim to have?

Stars scattered over us, sharing an earphone, eyes closed and the sunrise was our only worry. How I miss those times.

moonlight of my life, every night.
emotional struggle, council never felt like this ever.

2010-01-06T08:34:00.004+08:00

I dream of caramel. procrastination

I long for cinnamon. late

sugar sugar.

I'm not a good person. :\

2010-01-05T04:33:00.005+08:00

popiah day. We spent the whole day ravaging popiahs and we celebrated Glenn's birthday. I love the way we always remember each other birthdays. Awesome cake too btw.

oh YL. :D

the Killers, Yeah Yeah Yeah sold out. Muse - I cant afford it. I gotta save up for the Iphone that I owe Shalyn. bleh

Oh Rui En who happens to be damn chio, we were there to see her again.

I always loved traditions. Well, the 4 of us made it. What turned out to be some sort of impromtu hangout in 2008 became something real bromantic in 2009 ( and I hope for many years to come).

Wow its been a year. Short year, alot of changes. But I'm glad it all happened. The universe has a plan. That plan is always in motion. Its a scary thought but its also kind of wonderful to see the gears constantly moving making sure that you end up exactly where you're supposed to be. The right place, at the right time.

If not for OG 29, I wouldnt have met Geraldine or Sam, I wouldnt have even dreamt of joining council.

I wouldn't have learnt so much about myself, my weaknesses, strengths.

I wouldn't have met ML or Pyu, I would have ended up in some crappy physics class and hung myself. I wouldnt have ended up in s24 (:

If not for R, I wouldnt have learnt to deal with relationships.

If not for plan b & the fallout with leslie, I wouldnt realise friendships could be so fragile. cherish

If not for (HAHAHAHA), I wouldnt have known YL and had an such an awesome eoy vacation.

indeed nostalgic. 2009

2008

haha this always make me laugh.

I still remember taking this photo for them. (:

The whole thing was super nostalgic. The muah chee, the gushing over the ruien, the really really really awesome fireworks, that orgasmic moment after the fireworks where we hi5-ed each other and realised how exciting its going to be (2009) how screwed we going to be for As (2010), the sengkang mrt scene, the police station, that deserted park, that petrol station, the walking and of course mcdonalds.

For one, our conversational topics change. We kept talking about one thing the entire night.

We came across this really big big field that I'm going back one day to just lie down there or have a picnic.

"Okay but seriously it was fun. Talking to the guys for 5 hours straight was fun. Making a fool of ourselves together was fun. Rest assured, I'll never forget what happened to us on the first day of 2009."

2010 now. (:

I LOVE THIS BROS FEELING. HI5 EVERYONE MAN. SERIOUSLY.

Dont worry, we'll all be fine. I look forward to the HI5s in 2011 and hopefully ruien is still around and I promise we'll take a photo with her.

bittersweet shall we? 2010. hopefully I'll survive.

2010-01-04T04:32:00.006+08:00

"The longer I procrastinate, the longer it can remain a dream and not something I screwed up at."

nocturnal Jermaine 4.32am 4/01/10

& still ever so afraid of failure

2010-01-03T12:19:00.006+08:00

I just discovered the best sandwich ever.

The story goes, I was hungry in the middle night (as usual) so I went downstairs wanting to grab a bite. I wanted a peanut butter and jelly sandwicoh but I realised we were out of jello. Heres the awesome part. We only had bananas left so I sliced a few over my sandwich. What happened next was just pure magic.

I had my first sandwich-gasm.

Christmas 09 was tight. I haven't had such fab family time for a long time. Oh, vacation with family was great too.

Company was kickass

Oh, the kids absolutely love me.

Foood was great. I loveee hotplate. Unhealthy though the way I cook my stuff :]

Did I ever mention I love potatoes? These are second to donuts.

My best prezzie is definitely the live Nirvana album. Still zonking out to it. HAHAH

Oh yeah, two idiots came to crash that night. I opened the door and saw them carolling outside my house HAHAHA. Jingle bells indeed. Thanks friends lol.

The thang ended at my place and we moved it to some rooftop at kovan. Left the place quite high (at least for the two biatches haha).

Oh oh, I forgot. YL & I tried to study on Christmas eve in town. Bad bad bad call. We ended up doing xmas shopping. :D

Festive season whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo (coming to an end ): )

I got robbed BTW for the first ever time. WHERES JUSTICE?!

"Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten."

Lilo

All I wanna say is that, family are donuts.

2009-12-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

change of plans. urgh

Spending xmas with family. Family xmas parteh tmr with hotplate & presents woo~

flying off to msia for shopping. The time of the year where my mom gladly satisfies my material needs.

im so flunking.

2009-12-20T04:39:00.002+08:00

Oh so timely, my ipod commited suicide and drowned itself. Its officially dead. I'm probably going to follow suit soon without any music.

2009-12-19T00:06:00.006+08:00

green day - 14 jan

rock horns up yo

today was uber disappointing. :\

i want to be on a bali beach right now. Cant wait. plug in my music and just lie there for 2 weeks. sunrise sunset.

4F chalet reminded me why. I missed bullshitting with everyone. The retarded things that we all do. Provoking a random old man. Minimini vodka shots with stupid games. Sec 4 jokes. Going insane on a foosball game. wow.

I guess we never cherish until its gone.

Maybe in a few years time, I'll look back and regret not cherishing my time in SA.

Change is inevitable. I hate this. really

jealous. I guess I never really cherished my really awesome childhood too. Isnt it weird that Im always making fun of people who writes such stuff?

just fade away, along with the rest. SOMANYMONTHSALREADYANDYOUGUYSHAVENTBREAKUPYETHAHAHAHOMGIMSUCHADICK!

2009-12-13T04:03:00.001+08:00

sigh

i need a better smile

my social life is on the verge of crumbling

thats how the cookie crumble

2009-12-07T02:06:00.002+08:00

Stop.

It just doesnt turn out the way you always wanted it to be.

stop living in the past, the world changes. Do you expect the world to live in the past with you?

there is no ideal situation. no such thing.

Arent you sick of feeling so devastated every time reality bites?

Stop being so emotional,

your bros, R , family and friends are not going to wait together for a fairytale ending with you.

just move on, like you always told yourself.

work harder, push for things to happen, improve yourself, do you like getting chided and always feeling regretful.

time is not going to wait for you

just dont screw up anymore

just forget it jerm.

2009-12-03T02:26:00.002+08:00

shalyn dyed her hair red :O

I'm almost bald again.

Cant wait for As to be over

My mom was nice and sweet for like the first time in months. Talked to me like a baby (omg she sayang-ed me). Made me awesome awesome awesome pancakes with fab syrup. Trying to trick me into sleeping early, start studying for As, hang out more with them. and I did. Some kind of awesome parental tactics woo

lazy to add anymore. will appear soon again in the future

2009-11-27T01:46:00.002+08:00

im sorry i chose work.

i have alot on my mind right now. like alot.

i dont have alot of time for other stuff.

i need space.

In a years time, maybe we'll talk about this again.

blogging suddenly just lost its appeal. why do i even update anymore. maybe in the future

2009-11-17T01:17:00.003+08:00

Took this while out with S ytd.

Stiff neck urgh. unbearable pain. Please please disappear tmr after I wake up.

Stys left the land of singlehood. Happy for him lol. My brother is finally all grown up *tears of joy* its like seeing him walk for the first time.

watched 2012. Freaked out at all the mega huge explosions :O

2012 made me ponder about my grandma and yogi(my cute white puppy). Its cliche for a reason. I'm taking them both for granted. While watching the movie, the image of them gone from my life somehow formed.

sweet potatoes roasted chestnuts - you never forget em. I'll remember to eat my lunch and dinner. I'll always drink lots of water. I'll sleep early. I wont ignore your barkings when I come home. I'll hang out with you more often.

cute is really the word for it. awwwwwwwww

aye. the thought of it really stings.

anyway, chilled with S under the starry with the november breeze. Plugged in the earphones. awesome is the word, really. It was chasing cars, simple starving to be safe den bop bop baby.

sigh. its that song again. I remember calling you never uttering a word and we would still chat over msn with the line still on. I remember our first 'date' - I treated you wanton mee. I remember the times, where I wrote out the entire lyrics of an album for you. We'll laugh over it sooon. sweet memories of childhood.

BLEH. Home alone. Parents are overseas holidaying. Shalyn disappeared to OBS. Yogi went to some doggie hotel. I always wanted to be home alone. The feeling quite eerie, lonely and scary though O.O not quite what I expected. Help?

The worst thing is that I busted my allowance for this month. Supposed to be out partying today but I'm out of $ along with some other reasons.

I spent my last $20 on this. My DIY lunch & dinner for the next two days

Day 1
chicken & ham sandwich + some bbq sauce. Mantou for dessert. Awesome dinner.

Where were you when I needed you the most? :D

2009-11-14T22:19:00.003+08:00

declaring my love love for s24

Angry @ not getting to eat any roasted marsh at this chalet. Amazing first time ever. I came late so while everyones eating marsh, i'm busy cooking my amazingly salty chicken wings and awesome bacon. I remember searching for the friggin lighter at 3am with chow but to no avail. sad :( ended up at macs drowning sorrows

mj drinking cycling and chilling woo~

my butt still hurt from e cycling. I think my butt crack just got sexier ;)

my official second favorite thing is the world is buffets. wooooo dim sum yum. So didnt eat my fill that day. I'm so craving xiao long baos right now.

company was great

S24 been really really sweet. Its a fact. The girls are really just littleboyswhofartandshitalot so its just like maris (something really close to my heart). The other bros just really one of the coolest bunch of peeps I know. band of brothers hahah

One more year. I couldnt imagine better people to suffer As with. For that im feeling really lucky and grateful.

For better or for worse. Heres to 2010 with the people that rockmyworld.

and I have the worst stiff neck right now. Feeling unawesome :( Its the worst because I can't even chill by myself properly. I'm just lying down.

wake up
watch dvds
eat lunch and dinner
watch tv
sleeping soon

all on the bed the entire day. Great to be king. (:

2009-11-06T04:29:00.002+08:00

okay promise. This weekend is going to be fab.

Walao shufen.

2009-11-05T04:52:00.002+08:00

Rainy nights make me vulnerable.

I read my previous post and made me cringed big time.

Long time no emo yo.

Enjoying life right now. no time for emo.

2009-11-04T03:36:00.005+08:00

Watching how time flies. Moving on was never easy. lol @ childhood crushes.

Watching all these lovey dovey flicks got me thinking. How sad it is that you were not the person that I thought you'll be.

Its the childhood man. Playing soccer tgt? awkward phone calls? and how we dont even talk now.

(: Ironic, the reason why I even start this blog in the first place.

just fade away. we'll move on. Maybe one day when we see each other again, we'll laugh about all of this.

One day, I will travel the world to take pictures of orgasmic sunsets.

2009-11-03T04:24:00.003+08:00

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around,

and the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

not even close

not even a little bit

not even at all.

2009-11-02T23:49:00.002+08:00

hip hip hurray I found my ipod! woo~

TURNS OUT MY EVIL LITTLE SISTER HID IT IN A ENVELOPE BEHIND A BOOKSHELF FOR 2 MONTHS. I HAD TO PRETEND THAT IM GIVING HER $50 SO THAT SHE WOULD TAKE IT OUT. ZOMG @ the evilness

so enjoying the music everywhere i go now ~

and family tragedy. ):

2009-11-01T05:45:00.002+08:00

Epic halloween.

Had a movie marathon @ es place the day before. Watched 2 movies and ordered mac takeaway on a rainy night. Slept my whole halloween away. O.O

I woke up at 6pm. Es was still asleep. Well, yeah.

Went home in the rain. Kovan friend didnt want to come out in the end. Spent my halloween watching South Park and eating leftover bee hoon by myself. Bummer.

But hey, weekends still awesome as promised.

Halloween 09 was still fab. Although not in a very halloweeny way though.

I took this on the way home. Woo~~

Happy Halloween 09! Next year we'll be back. A levels :O bummer

PW tmr. :\

2009-10-29T05:36:00.002+08:00

omg I slept at like 2am and auto woke up at 5.30am.

Whaaaat? This has never happened

I'm growing old. :\

Anyway, I've been coughing for like 1plus months now(?), its clear that I cant auto recover like before.

I'm laying off the sweet stuff for now.

2009-10-28T02:49:00.004+08:00

Someone bit my flip flops

That night where we played with the lights and the camera.

This weekend is gonna be major. Cant wait.

For now, PW is still being a huge biatch.

Somehow I'm starting to like staying at home alone. Chill alone yeah? :\

and oh i haven been spending time with yogi lately :\ I should bring you for a haircut and a nice walk. I should totally get you a wife

AND family is going on holiday w/o me. Guess im home alone for 5 days. Movie marathon and nachos anyone?

2009-10-25T02:02:00.003+08:00

I always wanted a impromt bbq. Well, I finally had one today. (:

You're the only one loony enough to be willing to fool around with me.

We just sat there on a saturday night, roasting marshmallows over candles. (:

(: best buddy

2009-10-24T03:00:00.002+08:00

:\ Am I not man enough to stay true to a promise? Thats why im embarassed.

2 weeks