I took a long walk back home. Somehow I enjoy taking walks around private estates at night which is perfect for me because I'm surrounded by em in kovan. When I'm upset, walking alone helps me to sort out my thoughts. Anyway, I can only bring yogi out at night since he doesnt like strangers because he is a white wolf dog.

Maybe its because I take a long time to feel really comfortable with someone else. Maybe the whole process tires me thats why.


I'm faced with a mountain of doubt so big that I can't see over the top of it. My whole life, its always going with the flow. Its going with the obvious choice. Have you really ever fought for something you want? For me, not really. Taking that step forward, that leap of faith. Its tough.


Anyways its gonna be a long month. Gonna miss everything as usual. Loaded my ipod with kpop girls friends family outing 70s show ellie goulding U2 Van Halen taylor swift my morning jacket best coast. lets hope one month flies.


the next moment after last night carries on one month later when i wake up

Random thoughts.

Some stories just aren't meant to last. It took me a while to figure it out.

You know you've accepted it when you retell your story and no longer feel sour over it. We were just kids growing up together. Our story just happened to be a short one but the sweetest.

i think im being sucked into the korean wave. why friends why. so awesome tho

choco coins bakua coins!!

one month to thailand. :(

You were my everything. I was just part of your everything.

I'm genuinely glad for you guys. I really am. Its just that there's a small part of me that feels a little sour. Yknow that sour feeling that just makes you wonder about all the what ifs.

Anyways, spent the last day of 2011 with the usual bunch of people. Didn't walk from Punggol anymore tho. Still wanted to get a photo of us in a 7 eleven but I forgot lol. Just feels so surreal that we're doing this for the 4th time. Just a while back we were just a bunch of 16 year old noobs making plans to break singlehood when we finally meet girls in jc.

Fast forward to today. Not much has changed yeah? Lolol. For as long as it lasts guys, cheers to us.

Recently people have been asking me what are my plans for my future. Truth is, I really hate thinking about it. Dislike that it didn't come naturally to me. Dislike that this phase of my life is gonna end soon. Still, I will have to do it sooner or later. (Resolution for 2012)

Foo Fighters 2 March. I. Can't. Go. :(

2011 was not exactly my favourite year but still, a super important year for me.


I enlisted in early Feb last year. I had to spend so much time away from my family and friends. It taught me how valuable time really is. I used to be all friends. In the past, I hung out with my friends during the weekends rather than staying at home with my parents. I had a lot of time to think about stuff and after being shagged out from all the walking bashing fighting with the heavy loads, I thought about my mum and dad a lot. I realised that I really really missed them.


One time during Brunei, I smuggled my phone out and called them while hiding in a toilet cubicle ( we weren't allowed to use our phones then). They took turns talking to me on the phone. Hearing Shalyn's giggles, her saying that she misses (first time ever) and my Dad being proud of me made me really really homesick. And when my mom told me stuff like she misses seeing my smile and she will cook all of my favourite food when im back just killed me there. Longest one month of my life.


At the end of the day all I pretty much wanted to was to go home and see them.


As for my friends, sorry if I didnt put in enough effort to maintain the relationship. Sorry for letting go again. Sorry for always wanting to stay at home (I'm super homely). Sorry for always being really tired. I'm also thankful for you who wouldnt take no for an answer and come harass me at my house. I'm really grateful that you bothered.



In all, 2011 made me realise how important my family was to me.

Alrighty, finally caved in and got myself a bb gosh. First smartphone ever can you believe it?

Sucha paris hilton phone geez.

You try so hard not to be typical that you ended up being typical. Not meant to be cool.

2 years ago, we downed our first bottle of vodka on the roof of the amphi

Last year, we exchanged gifts (not typical $10 secret santa gifts) and watched ortis

This year, we got lazy and simply drank chocolate milk and played halo.

We're getting old guys. mellloowing out. Kinda have the feeling that this would be the last year that it'll be just us guys. ykw

Next year, I'll be friggin twenty. No longer a teen yikes.