I took a long walk back home. Somehow I enjoy taking walks around private estates at night which is perfect for me because I'm surrounded by em in kovan. When I'm upset, walking alone helps me to sort out my thoughts. Anyway, I can only bring yogi out at night since he doesnt like strangers because he is a white wolf dog.

Maybe its because I take a long time to feel really comfortable with someone else. Maybe the whole process tires me thats why.


I'm faced with a mountain of doubt so big that I can't see over the top of it. My whole life, its always going with the flow. Its going with the obvious choice. Have you really ever fought for something you want? For me, not really. Taking that step forward, that leap of faith. Its tough.


Anyways its gonna be a long month. Gonna miss everything as usual. Loaded my ipod with kpop girls friends family outing 70s show ellie goulding U2 Van Halen taylor swift my morning jacket best coast. lets hope one month flies.


the next moment after last night carries on one month later when i wake up